Starting and Stopping

Starting and stopping...starting and stopping. It seems like all day long every day that is the process we are all going through. I started this blog only to stop this blog. I start my day only to end my day. New relationships begin and old ones end. We start preparing for Christmas only to begin to take down the decorations no sooner than we put them up (unless you are like me and keep your Christmas tree up all year round).

For me, much like everyone else, I have started and stopped several jobs and relationships in my life.

Each time I started a job or relationship, I had this hope for all of the things it could be. I had excitement and anxiousness but overall a sense of joy. Maybe this one will stick? Maybe just maybe I have found what I have been looking for? But what was I looking for? I still can't tell you what exactly it was, but I can say that none of them is what I was looking for.

I always knew it was time for the job or relationship to end when I started to play out in my mind how it was going to end. I found comfort in doing this and it even made me feel like I was in control (I laugh at the little control I actually have). Even writing I don't feel like I am in control. I begin with one idea in mind of what I want to say and end with something way different ( I have no clue how it happens).

But then... I started to think.. what if I stopped living with the end in mind? I know they tell us to, I know they say that you should, but what if that is actually what the problem is. What if that's why we leave the job or the relationship because we already see it ending so we want to get out before it does?

Now don't get me wrong, if your relationship is toxic or you absolutely hate your job.. LEAVE. Don't waste one second of your life doing anything that doesn't match up to your core values and beliefs. But... if you have something good..don't wish it away. Don't pick apart a beautiful flower. Appreciate it and take care of it, try to see where it goes. And maybe...just maybe...this will be...it.

Starting and stopping.

Give it a Chance.

Until Next Time